Have you ever come across a situation where you are very happy about something and at the same time very scared about it? Or have you ever come across a situation where your mum is very happy about you and so are you but at the same time you are scared about it as well. I know a lot must be going on in your head when I ask you all this. And if I’m not wrong, the first thought would be a ‘marriage proposal’.

Two weeks back mum told me “honey there is this wedding coming up n you’ll be coming with us and this time you’ll be draping a sari. ‘Wow!!! Draping a sari for a wedding, awesome’ my mind said but the very next minute it turned out to be ‘whoa wedding n draping a sari, shit!!!’ Wedding in coorg is great fun without any doubt but for a 20yr old girl it can be quiet scary. And when you drape a sari for a wedding it’s a biggest sign you’ll be giving to the aunties and the uncles, grannies and yes not to forget the mothers who are in search of a bride for their sons. And the feeling will be like you are the sheep surrounded by many wolves ready to pounce on you. Similar was my feeling when mum told me about this wedding.

Today When i saw myself in the mirror, I was excited about my sari being draped really well. But throughout the way I kept complaining to mom that 'I won’t know anybody in the wedding and I’m draped in a sari'. Mom just kept quiet throughout the way. As we reached the wedding hall I started feeling a bit scared looking at the people around staring at me. I thought “God, the wolves are already plotting to pounce on me” My mum then took me to this group of wolves, oops oldies, I mean. To my surprise they weren’t the wolves in fact I had them advising me not to get me married so early. Awesome!! My mind said that minute. Then mom took me to this group of aunties chatting to glory, they didn’t recognize me at first then as my mom introduced me to these ladies they just exclaimed “My god sushi!! You have got such a pretty daughter” I’m sure they would have been thinking she’ll be an awesome pair for my son o my nephew o my sister’s husband’s bother’s wife’s sister’s son, phew!! That’s how it goes when it comes to finding a bride for a guy. And I kept saying in my mind ‘aunties please do not compliment me having such a thought’.

In fact I have put them in few groups. Firstly who’ll just compliment you because you are looking pretty (best ones).Secondly the ones staring at you (spooky ones). Thirdly you have these who’ll compliment you with the thought of getting you married to their sons or nephews etc (scary wolves). Finally you have these who’ll just ask you if you ready to get married. God these are the ones I call the wolves that are ready to pounce.

Thanks to mom I came across all these people today n thanks to her again who saved me from these by saying that she won’t be getting me married so early. Now you know why this mixed emotion in me is.